Saw my shrink today, it continues to go well. ALMOST finished christmas shopping, still waiting for suggestions for niece and nephew. tap tap tap.
In the tub tonight Charlotte said: “today is a beautiful day to be you”. I am sure it is from some pre-school thing or book, but it was so cute. She wasn’t addressing Mark or I, well, maybe Mark. Perhaps the squirty whale, I have no idea. Kids really do say the darnedest things. She was also singing to a French lullaby tonight, she doesn’t know what it means, but has memorized the words, adorable!

last gin n’ tonic for a while

piece of chocolate
found melted on my bed sheet
i know you’re not poo

Mark is done his “crunch” time as of today. He came home and flopped into bed for an hour before rising to eat and then go harass Best Buy about finding our TV cheaper elsewhere. Yay money back!
I am almost finished Christmas shopping, mostly online, which is awesome. Still trying to get as much meat in as possible, but it is difficult when I love oatmeal for breakfast, and lunch, and snacks. I am an oatmeal addict. We actually have some real snow on the ground now. I know where I live and I have lived here (more or less) all of my life. But that first snow, the first burst or real cold and it is like it snowed on my mood. I leave the house less, I watch more tv, I have to work hard not to let the motherfucking long winter suck my soul. Tis probably why I love the blogging so much. All my internet friends are warm and nice. The computer is inside, warm and nice. We do have a fireplace, with real wood. I like to stoke that up a few times a year.
I love Christmas, this year my BioMom™ will be here for about 5 days, which is nice. Not being able to eat anything festive doesn’t really bother me. I will focus on the fun stuff, play some trivial pursuit, bowl on the Wii, other things besides eat. Feel free to give suggestions here about keeping my mind off the food. I should try and write more, learn to knit? Add to my massive collection of porn (i started this when I had to quit sugar and smoking). kidding. about the porn.
I am going upstairs to watch America’s Next Top Model. This writers strike is killing me, especially in regards to all my news. I miss Jon and Stephen. I guess I could read some news websites. Oooo youtube Republican debate is zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Of my nothing but meat diet. Kidding. I have some moments of how much this surgery could change my life. The other part of my brain is totally occupied with Christmas to do lists, appointments with my psychologist, psychiatrist, general pracictionor, pre-operative examination, i need my freakin’ drivers medical, blood work, dentist, blah de blah blah. It is hard to focus on much else.
Charlotte has a snotty head cold that she probably got from licking the stairs or something at the Christmas party on Sunday. It means that I can’t send her to preschool tomorrow. It puts a kink into my errands, but i am a mom and will push on through!
Currently, I am lying on the couch watching some tv. I notice the Oprah has a weight loss show tomorrow, I will watch and it will likely annoy me.
I loves you people, over for some meat tomorrow. I will make it festive I promise.

We went to Mark’s company’s kids Christmas party yesterday. Charlotte screamed like a banshee when she saw santa, but seemed to enjoy herself otherwise. She is still not a mingler, but will let almost any adult give her a huge hug.

more on flickr

I wrote about Entertainment Weekly’s top 25 Entertainers. Some I agree, some make me go wha’?

I have 9 days left until my Optifast diet for the two weeks before surgery. I ate my meat of the day today – a small beef fillet for dinner. Done nice and rare. Charlotte and I shared a bowl of Mac n Cheese and I ate my meat. MEAT. Mark is still working overtime on some silly video game. After the surgery it will be 8 weeks until I am on solids. Teeny tiny solids that I have to chew 30 times before I swallow it. I am looking forward to the whole experience. Part of me likes being told what to eat and when, less to think about.
I am also trying to make sure I get all my Christmas stuff done as soon as possible. My surgery is on the 18th of December and I don’t get back until the 22nd. My biomom gets here on the 24th. Despite my pureed Christmas dinner, I am excited about the holidays.
Today was Mark’s company’s kids Christmas party, we took photos, but There are on my desktop and I am on the laptop and too lazy to go down and upload them. I also need to write my MamaPop post for tomorrow. Plus, I am watching tv. Are you getting the picture of how lazy I really am? There is always the chance I cannot sleep and will check them out later.
I hope you are all recovered from your feasts and shopping. I actually did some shopping on Friday too. I bought Charlotte a metal Tonka front loader! Think of the dirty summer fun. Also, it snowed today.
I will now go watch Criminal Intent on our grossly gigantic tv.
xo

I am making my christmas list. what should i ask for? any must haves this year?
also my butt is numb and my husband is working too much, i need one of those laptop tray things for the couch.
also, watched the biggest loser tonight. i am happy for the losing weight, i am pro losing weight, being healthy. but i HATE hearing about they hated themselves when they were heavier. i mean i am not a poster child for self love wile fat, but I wish there was a component of the show that promoted self love at any size. losing weight, improving your health is great, but loving yourself should be vital as well.
so i say.
and woah, just made the nowblowme deadline!
OH! i also talked with Belinda from Ninjapoodles forever! this afternoon. good day

Since most of you are in some sort of food orgy coma, I will keep it short.
I am impressed when in my comment spam, someone has managed to put together a gay sex DVD with video of bariatric surgeries. These people know my audience. I guess.
xo

I arrive early for the the 7pm show, i am there at 6pm. I expected to be fighting with throngs of teens, moms, kids tweens and everything in betweens.
At 6:10 there are 4 of us in the theatre. I did manage to kill 7 minutes eating an ice cream.
I brought a book, which is kind of dumb. I have bionic hearing, but not bionic eyesight. Damn you Steve Austin!
There is a couple here! My guess is he wants to get some. I think the movie will be good, but what guy would want to come of his own volition? A PG Disney movie.
I had to borrow my mom’s Camry because Mark is working overtime. I feel all grow’d up in it, compared to the wee red Corolla which is my usual ride. Charlotte is also whooping it up at the grandparents.
Six people at 6:15. Afraid to close my eyes lest I fall asleep and god forbid. Snore. Charlotte keept me up a couple of times last night. One poo emergency and one SNUGGLE ME MOMMY at 4AM.
Two more people at 6:16, another couple! Colour me surprised.
I am actually using a pen and paper to write all this blather. At least I am using a Moleskine to keep up my cred. I have cred?
My new red cashmere sweater is HOT. I am hot. I wonder if I took it off would my gutt rolls offend the patrons? Perhaps when the lights dim.
6:22 Two single ladies and a dude. Oh guy, two against one, you look a little beaten down.
HEY LADY, that better be a plastic baby!
One of the two chicks next to me; “yesterday, I was like SO sad, I didn’t go to school AT ALL.”
More kids, more moms, lots of women in there 20s, 30s and 40s. That is the McDreamy demographic.
Did I mention I have never been to a movie alone? I wasn’t afraid, it just never really occurred to me. I rarely see movies in the theatre anyhow.
Now I remember why I rarely go to the theatre – stimulus overload. Crinkle, chew, chew chew, cell phone lights, CHATTING, other people. Who decided to make popcorn a movie food anyhow? IT is LOUD, and crinkly. I am 0 years old.
6:30 Some kid already has to go to the bathroom. Ugh, I don’t know how long I will wait to take Charlotte to a movie.
BOOB ALERT. I can look down the top of the girl sitting in front of me.
Fashion statement. Wool coat, skit, scarf… flip flops. It is -5C here people.
6:58 The ads and previews are KILLING ME PEOPLE. I have been here for an hour. Fast Forward!!
I am doing this because I deeply love Isabel Kallman. OK, and I REALLY wanted to see this, the previews were HI-larious.
Annnnnnnd showtime!
REVIEW HERE