Ok, seven years of having a blog. This baby blog, jennui.com, is new, but THAT OTHER ON, lets call is menandcolonic, lived almost seven years. My first post was August 22st, 2002. Holy Shit. I started the blog while I was working in an office job and was better able to post regularly. My time was structured. I didn’t have the ability to slack and procrastinate and put off posting like I do now. I miss that regularity, I miss the community at the time. Yea, I am going to be all old skool and miss those times. I like what is happening now, the growth, the opportunities, the more and more amazing people. I did consider calling it quits after a family member found old kenandflonic, but I was inspired by all of you to continue. I think it was Will, from Be the Boy, who said the only thing worse than blogging, is not blogging. Blogging has changes, Facebook, and Twitter have been the most significant in terms of taking people away from Classic Blogging®. I think I needed a reality check and you guys were great and I had fantastic comments on this post where I was discerning my online path. I encourage you all to read the comments, if you blog or read blogs or generally exist. Some smart people saying excellent things. I will keep blogging, the way I want, for me and not for others. I will be doing product reviews when appropriate, I will also be adding a style section, because people, I love my things, and it is part of my life.
Ultimately, I think that what has renewed my passion for the blog is diversity. I am not just depressed, fat, sad, lazy, or live a life of slack. Those things are true of me, but not all the time. I want to talk about cooking, gardening, clothes, mental health, television, donuts, whatever is on my mind. I think I had pigeon holed myself into a depression blog and that isn’t all I am. Some of you suggested that if having a blog no longer made me happy, I should stop. I thought about that. Other commenters talked about me getting out of the house more, or getting a job out of the house. Also good advice and more thought. I have insulated myself since not working in an office environment, created more social anxiety. I am working hard at getting the hell out of the house to see friends who live near me, friends who I can have a coffee with. I HAVE FRIENDS in my city that I neglect, but whom I love. I am working on this. I did hang out with my friend Kelly twice in the last couple of weeks while she made jam and got to hold her 3 month old lovely baby.
The job thing is harder. I considered working at an Apple store, or perhaps another retail environment. Alas, the knee injury, bursitis, and arthritis prevents me from standing on a hard service for any length of time. I cannot get a full-time office job, neither my psychiatrist or medical physician would approve a 40 hour week because of the crazy and physical challenges of being old and gibbled. I have looked or some part-time office gigs, but it is slim pickins’. Most of the jobs are temp relief in medical offices or part-time assistants, secretarial work. While I am not putting these jobs down in any why, it is difficult for me to do that type of work after being in a professional position for 11 plus years. When I left my previous job, I tried to let me job share with my replacement. They would not, so I quit. I am in a fortunate (really really really lucky, I know) position to not HAVE to work, so I will keep looking for work, paid or not. I haven’t spent a lot of time looking yet. If I was smarter or keener or more disciplined or magic, perhaps I could blog my way into more of a part-time job. Paid or not. Still thinking.
I am trying to work with some people to make jennui look nice, I have some ideas in my pocket. The dusty one in my brain I haven’t used much. I have lots in my head and I want to put it here. I enjoyed it before and I think I can adapt to the New Way of blogging and love it again. I also want to address more of the comments from that post. You guys changed my life and I have to tell you I printed out all of the comments so I can read them on PAPER. Thank you my people. You are awesome.
Advice always welcome my friends.
